R. Kelly Opens Up About His Past Issues

R. Kelly is opening up about past sexual abuse he says he experienced for years as a child.

The 49-year-old singer talks candidly about the alleged abuse in a new interview with GQ -- which he first talked about in his 2012 memoir, Soulacoaster -- and reveals that the woman who allegedly regularly abused him since he was "about [age] 7 or 8 to maybe 14, 15" is a blood relative.

"I remember it feeling weird. I remember feeling ashamed," he says. "I remember closing my eyes or keeping my hands over my eyes. I remember those things, but couldn't judge it one way or the other fully."

"Over time, yeah, [it changed]," he continues. "I remember actually, after a couple of years, looking forward to it sometimes. You know, acting like I didn't, but did."

Kelly says the reported abuse eventually stopped when he got a girlfriend.

"I started getting older and knowing that's just not supposed to happen -- family members," he reflects. "And I think it started getting scary for them because I just started acting really different about it, and I think it became a turnoff to them, and a scary thing."

The "Ignition" singer says he now has no contact with the relative, although he claims she "didn't own up to it" when he attempted to discuss it with her eight years ago. Still, Kelly says he "definitely" forgives her, and wouldn't want her to be held accountable for a crime.

"As I'm older, I look at it and I know that it had to be not just about me and them, but them and somebody older than them when they were younger, and whatever happened to them when they were younger," he says. "I looked at it as if there was a sort of like, I don't know, a generational curse, so to speak, going down through the family. Not just started with her doing that to me."

Obviously, the alleged abuse definitely affected him.

"It teaches you to definitely be sexual earlier than you should have, than you're supposed to," he says. "You know, no different than putting a loaded gun in a kid's hand -- he gonna grow up being a shooter, probably. I think it affects you tremendously when that happens at an early age. ... Your hormones are up more than they would normally be. Mine was."

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